Suffering is Optional Part II

I was soooooooooo hopeful that I would get canceled at work this evening, so hopeful!  There were even 2 possible cancellations today and I was on the top of the list!  Then I got the dreaded phone call that they need me to come in.  My whole world changed.  I got super upset and resistant to going into work.  I was thinking about all the ways that I could get out of it. My mind went into a hole of “my work is unsafe, I don’t like it there, not even the money is worth being there, etc.”  I was everything but accepting about the fact that I have to go to work today.

Now in awareness, I see that I need to accept this, it’s that simple and the end to my suffering. I need to accept the fact that work needs me to be there tonight.  I need to focus on the good and the possibility that maybe there is a specific patient on the unit who needs the type of care I give.  Maybe there is something bigger than me going on and maybe the world is not out to get me.  I am open to this.  I caused a lot of suffering within myself and conflict between my husband and I when I was unaccepting. It was definitely not worth it!

So I am going to accept that I have to work tonight, not for work, but for me and my peace within.  And I will even look around and be open to something good there.

May there be peace within.

Love,

Gina

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